Endless_Memories

I still can live for how long?

2005-05-16T09:08:00.000-07:00

life really is very short..i have try to lives my life to the fullest...and try to help people who is needs help..but at times people think u are busybody..hai..what to do..at least i done my part..i do not know i still can live for how long..but when i am still alive..i try to really do things that i like...and challange myself that most people dun dare to do it that inculde adult...but i try to stay as happy as i could...so my life will not be wasted..i really what tomolo i will be...i just hope that my group from IT1D..one day will understand what i am doing for them...what i have done for u guys has been done...as least i done my part...but i fail to motivte u guys to be a leader of yr own life..but this is my best liao for u guys...

nothing is impossible

2005-04-27T20:04:00.000-07:00

Hey...thinking no one will see this blog...hee..cause i have been not updating this blog half a year liao.

recently, Had a lots of problem on my classmate...backstabing,two headed snake,FOC chicken..and others...

Today had a great talking session with my group as i just felt that we needed this talk long ago.but people rather keep it themselves.knowing joyce having jealous that me,jolene and apple are close thats why saying me that i want to spit them up...knowing if u love or like someone u will actually protect that person even u know will hurt people.knowing that be it in a good group or worst group is still part of learning and i felt is a challange for me to break this barrier of this group.

I started knowing what human are really thinking about.and improve the way of speaking and voice out all the things to the table and leave it there and never bring it with you.As it is just bad memories.Everyone will encounter good and bad times but just let it a learning path and learn along the way but stop thinking back what is wrong as we cant live at the past. This is what i know that human like to live in the past. Everyone will fall down but you must have the will to stand up and walk again or even sometime u can have friend to support you...

dateline and exams has drew nearer and nearer.But the only things that i cant put down is that i really worry this group of gals.I really want to help them in life but trying sort of way at least today i did move people a bit like apple. who have learn to grow more mature just that no one know....keep it up man...

this are the following people i worry:

Jin Ting - a gal that people treat her as 8088...a gal who is helpful at times but just hope that also think for people first b4 yourself and learn to forgive and forget. but guys will like her cooking and ways of a women should have.but still treat people nicer..overrall a nice and sweet gal..opps..hee "Care"

Apple - always a cheerful plus happy go lucky gal..but will be stress and start angry if things are not done what she wans..learn not to give too much stress and believe what u believe...selling soy bean can be a good thing too...know what i say..learn to defend yourself rather than keeping dun care..sometime problem may just indirectly shoot u... "so just be who u are,what u wan to be" "Smile"

Jolene - a cheerful gal plus gal who treasure friendship...i always believe that over do it can cause problem when it is a good matter..e.g.people tell u problem but become yr problem in the end...learn to play around with yr mind...but always felt u are useless...u just trap in your own fear of yr young time..learn to let go.."memories are just memories..let by gone be by gone..trust and believe yourself that nothing is impossible" and u will do well in yr life....really..a potenial leadership..i will never see wrong people...i'm not a fourture-teller but a forecaster that forsee things..."Believe"

Joyce - A gal who is sweet plus hardworking...i know that u are stubborn people as me..but learn to love people and care for people and they will start to return u all this things..if they dun..is ok..u are just doing good deeds...i always believe "what u do is what u get" and "what u see is what u get"...learn to put yr anger down and start open yr heart for yr friends..and friends will just come about and friendship will never end... " Love"

Roy - a guy who is elder than me..and treated him as my elder brother...a guy who is lack of what is he doing in bad times..learn to stay calm and firm when bad suitiation come about...we just treat it as a experience and a learning process for us..as we know that nothing is perfect in own life...dun be to harsh and to direct on topic that should not be to detail....and u have the passion on what u wan in life just that u do not know how to get it there so learn as we go in order to get it... "Passion"

Alvin - A cuties guy that i have seens so far in life...know what you want in life and learn how to get it instead of craving own dream that can never come true...dreams will never come true unless u work on it...but a guy that is really helpful and willing to lend you a hand for other that now days is rare....you can be somebody one day..do u know that?..if u work on what u wan in life now. "Reality"

Wendy - A gal with courage and knowing what she wants...but just that she do not know how to get it to her own goal...She have also a bad temper when things cant work out..let us work together by counting 30sec if next time u really got angry and have a calm mind to slove problem that is ahead of u...remember that i told u are a leader just that u need people to unlock yr potenial leadership...think i cant do that for u now...hope one day u will know what i meant and u will own creation of yr life with wonderful future ahead of you....So have courage and challange yourself ahead of u to break the barriers... " Courage"

ROGER - A guy that always make mistake in life and lead to a state of regret but learn to stand up a my own without anyone helping hand.as truly understand that no one will help u unless u help yrself. Always searching things that i wanted most in my life and trying to share and learn what is wrong and correct in life...and get to know "WHO AM I"..that always have this motto that "Nothing is impossible if u believe in yourself"..always like challange ownself who think that cant be done...and make own record as truly understand we only have this one life time make full use of it...and hate to wear mask..like to be who i am and never care other people thing if people are just bullshit me... " Freedom"

think never left anyone out..if i had just say anything wrong just forget it...cause we are still friends..really learn a lot from u guys...once again if anything needed help just call my hotline from 7pm - 7 am ONLY...charges will be send to yr house if is out of that timing..JK..hee...

Take care...

"Every night i die but when i am awake i am REBORN"

2004-10-18T12:49:00.000-07:00

Today had my Health screening with my classmate..hee..than thinking of long time never check my body liao..will i get any sickness..haha..than it was funny..i did a weight in and is 62kg..hai..fat liao lor..haha..after that had a blood test.. :) ..and the person ask me to go toilet and get some holy water..haha...i told her that i cant cause i just when to toliet and relase liao..and she ask me to drink water..haha..lucky..i manage to get some of my holy water..and still hot..hhaa...than the people explain to me about my body..turn out to be normal and very good..just that need to watch out for getting more weight until 63kg..is not good liao..hao..let get some fasting and diet programme..hee..first time..i wan to be slim..must be get in touch too much gals liao..now had a thinking of getting on diet..haha..joking...

when to my taekwondo training at macpherson ITE...today had a tough day man...doing squads for 100 times with bands of brother together...really had a motivited..cause i yesterday do a frog jump at the bedok reservoirs slopes + running my 2.4km..haha..can die..tomolo still got training..than just now i got a friend wants to know a gal..haha..and i help him to get her number..haha..interesting..today is tried but fun..tomolo will be more killing to come and wednesday training..like become a killer.haha..

Another Normal Day

2004-10-17T22:32:00.000-07:00

last night have a chat with ivy talking about what kind of gal she is...and she just know what fault she had..just cant hope she change for the better..today just like a normal day..wake up morning and when to work at 10am..hai..me alone doing opening..hai..hee..but had to change my attuide of towards work is to learn new things..hee...and after work that is 3pm..i meet friend at 5.30pm and when for running for training for my coming takewondo...and was very tried..tomolo still have training..hope what i have put in can get what i wan.

DSA outing

2004-10-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

Today..early in the morning meeting the wan qing they all for a DSA Outing ..and benjamin was still slping and just wake up.hai..and we had breakfast together at YMCA macdonald..and benjamin took cab to YMCA...and we actually make sandwiches sessions and it was my first time making sandwiches to people...and i ask one of the ID child to make sandwiches he dun wan..hee..so bad..i do u wan ask u to make for kor kor..dun wan..hee.. and go botanic garden to have our mini treasure hunt..haha..is lame but it do really let the IDs childrens had fun..hee..so overrall had a great time..

after the outing was around2 plus we when to had our lunch pastamina again..we eat around 70plus..wah..and when to watch movie...and lastly to explande to see the breezes..So i did have a relax day..hee..tomolo need to wake up at 9am for work..again..and just talking to ivy on the phone..and settle my things with her...hope she really can think about what i had say lor..hai

Pulau Ubin Trip

2004-10-15T17:36:00.000-07:00

Long time since i came here and write my things.And i actually just got home from pulau Ubin trip with my classmates.We actually meet 8am in the morning but ended up all late and jolene was unable to come with us as she has a rashes break out.i know that she really wanted to go and dun wish to spoilt the mood.If u see this "dun worry jolene we can go next time with apple".Apple also never go and she went for her basketball final match and came back with champion.so proud of her.and ended up only.me,wendy,alvin lucaus and joyce.we reach there around 10+ and rent a bike for 4 bucks cheap liao...we went to near the OBS campsite.along the way there are alot of things to see e.g trees, kampong.we went to temple and pray. just finish our checkpoint and about to go to the noordin beach.wendy start to not feeling well..think is have not enough slp.alvin bring out his holy water that is defrost from ice and let her wash her face and get a bit better.opps forget something..very nice of wendy to actually bring breakfast sandwiches for us..thank you..hee..along the way we saw different kind of dogs.and finally we reach our first beach the noirdin beach.that was my campsite..so long never go there liao..so many memories suddenly..we took some picture and there is a dog, and wendy give the bread to that dog..hee...the dog actually scare of us and we try to took some picture of that dog..but whenever we try to take it us scare off and walked off fews steps away..and than we have a rest and chat for awhile b4 we move on to mama beach..hee..there was lots of slopes up and down until u can cry..hee...but what to do is part of my training for my coming inter-ite taekwondo...and finally reach the mama beach.and i took them to a kampong that is with animals like parrots and peacock..ALSO WILD BOAR..hee..so smelly and big size..than that uncle say that who ever can touch the peacock's head can give u luck..at first i dun dare one..is really scare..in the end..i manage to touch it..so happy..hee..hope it really change my life to a better one..hee..and after that we went back to the jetty and is around 2pm liao..we play for around 4hours..is really very tried..and went for a lunch..the food there was so nice man..must go often..on the way...i try to contact apple she actually meet me 5pm at tampines control that i also agree..and i asked jolene and she say she not feeling well so in the end we never go..but i actually also very tried liao...so overall have a great time..but without apple and jolene...dun be sad we can go next time b4 my competition...k..and last night i made jolene sad for my attiude towards her..sorry..hee..tomolo got DSA outing with the children..and meeting them at 8.15am..hai...

2004-10-04T23:37:00.000-07:00

Today is had a fun time with my group that consist of Myself,jin ting,apple,jolene,joyce,wendy,roy and alivin...my group getting bigger liao..hee..and we actually spend most of the time thinking of where to go for our lunch..first going to woodlands but ended up at tampines mall again..but still,dun know what to eat...and at first they wanted pastamina..wah liao..eat until vomit liao...la...lucky they change...then had a voting..so going to genki sushi..but they had to budget..so still go food court..actually someone dun wan to go there and eat..hee..by that time we eat and settle is already 3pm liao...so we decided to skip lesson and extend our lunch time to 4pm...we when to took a neo print...that was my first time take until sweating and i felt like i am a prata man liao...hee..but it was fun...than went to popular and thats it..looking at files...and apple actually found a file that look like me..what bread one..haha...and she actually brought for me..so sweet..thanks..we reach school is aready...4.30pm liao

i went for my taekwondo with tian peng..and ben and ting feng in the end never come...shit them..haha...now preparing for my competiton...i understand that i am having some attuide when jolene always is saying me i dun know is it true la...but i know i did change...cause i doing this for my competiton..thats the only way to regain my guts...may find it stupid..but i did know what i am doing la..but still sorry..hee..

just now ivy actually called ask me wan to watch movie a not tomolo..i wanted to watch white chicks..but she say she watching at wednesday with her friends..and there is actually no other nice movie lo..cause she dun even one to watch ghost movie..first time..i heard from a gal that she dun wan to watch even there is a guy beside her..so tomolo what should i do leh..

but i also got training tomolo leh for my competition..should i meet her or go for traning???hai...

Busy days

2004-10-03T23:09:00.000-07:00

three days never write so i cut it short...friday actually went to pastamania to eat but ended up helping out..cause the coward coming in and lack of staff so help out and ask my friends to wait for me but who knows they leave..hai...than ivy came to work for awhile and say she want to go home cause she is sick so...i actually i send to see doctor...we actually get the chance to talk together and send her home..and i replace her..so when for work and that day was totally busy cause it was a children's day...wah..

and yesterday was very happy..i also dun know why..actually should be tried cause i work until whole day..maybe is because that ivy never give me attiude or stress up easily..but keep pouring drinks for me..and wanted to watch mid night..but due to her mother in the end never...but after work we go buy beer to drink for a while..and i actually asked her..why u so different???she ans:"i am changing for a person"...and thats me..hope she really change ba...and make me felt love...hope she get well faster...but still let us fate be...

today...wah liao..angry sia...work from 3 - 11pm..and it was a busy day..the best part was i actually cooking my meal..and my manger scolded me to be quick..and i went out i know he was alone..i was angry lor..he can leave me alone and go smoking with another person..why cant i take my time..and during closing...he and that guy again went to smoking and leave me and two gals doing closing and knew that there is a lot of things to do...is very what leh..."I had enough of this people...Those who treated me badly in working is the high time to pay for it"..i have enough..

One thing i dun like ivy is that..i sms her..she took a very long long time to reply or even dun...so behind her there are lots of questions...who is she...a pure gal or a fake person again?

Getting my pay

2004-09-30T09:22:00.000-07:00

today had to hand up my "speech planner"..which is for the presentation and my topic is about taekwondo..hee..again..haha..and that teacher always late..haha..and after that had our lunch..jin ting went to bedok interchange and but those mee and carrot cake..erm..let me see i can remember who eat what..me had "mee plus fillet and hot dog", joyce had carrot cake, jolene also carrot cake jin ting had mee,wendy's one i forget and lastly apple had chicken rice..haha..special people eat differently..haha..and after that when to CO-OP shop and buy tibits..hai..getting fatter liao la...haha...HELP..haha..apple leave us half way having her basketball match at RC campus..just heard that she won..hee..good for u...and than went for MMF teaching us on flash and last the lesson EMATHS..hai..my brain cells die alot during this lesson..and also tell us to redo the exemtion..by that time is approved i already finish the subjects liao...than went to work..lucky still on time..and i get my pay slip..hee..the most happiest moments..haha..but got back 5oo+..hai...and i work so less this month..sure die liao..so overrall today still ok..normal day...

Great Fight During Training

2004-09-29T23:00:00.000-07:00

Today had my Cmain practical test again..hai..this time test on Zip drive.hee..and i got back my Emaths class test..hai...long long time never get this kind of result that is 27 over 100..and i found out when teacher is going though that i had a lot of careless mistakes..sad..hai...must buck up..and yesterday talk to jolene over the phone..and knowing that she had a lot of problem going on.."Learn to look forward but not holding back, that has been with u during your bad times"..

Today is a great fight man during my taekwondo training...i really fight fierce..and shock the opponent..hee..using a lot of power and shouting..hee..but my leg really hurts..and now it seems like having blue black again..hee..at least i have much confidence in my fighting..

someone to touch or step inside my life

2004-09-27T21:00:00.000-07:00

yesterday...taekwondo training is quite fun cause my buddies all come back and learn for grading..hee...and i actually saw wei ting and gladys...thinking today jia li sure know that i am at macpherson yesterday...and talk to gladys for awhile checking how is she..but seems not to be so good as she dun tell problems to them when she is stress..but still hope she learn to cope stress as she stress up easly...

And now learning Excel...hai...cant they just teach us different things and this teacher towards us having some attiude...what to do...hee...Just now have the thinking of quiting sch and going army now and come out and study in ploy...actually my GPA can go in.hai..blame me for unlucky...

Dun really know what i am thinking about recently...having so many thoughts in my mind....

- Inter-ITE taekwondo
- whether want to tansfer TM to Bugis's pastamania
- wan to change into Cook
- What i wan in my life
- Friends in school
- Working
- and others

Felt so sian in school...or even in life...is not really me lor...change until like so despressed in life..."I just need someone to touch or step inside my life"...but still nothing can be done...

Later...working again..hee...got new people..haha..call stella...haha..singer..hope she is not the type that do nothing...

sian

2004-09-26T20:56:00.000-07:00

this two days is a very tring day,as i need to work for whole day...and i felt that my working place is getting more and more worst and yesterday i actually teach a new manager things..kind of wierd..haha..but i am thinking of quiting or transfer to another outlet..hai..what am i suppose to do..but i also need money...hai...later got taekwondo...

Offday

2004-09-15T23:56:00.000-07:00

Today was my one week holiday with only day off,cause i'm working 6 days and the offday was my study with my group of friends.Meeting them at the mac near jolene's house at 12.30pm. Actually, is 12pm but i wake up late.Hee!!!...and the journy actually saw "June" opposite the TP ploy waiting for bus.

Reach there, apple and jolene are still not done with their make-up all that...group study also need to make up before go out..what to do gals are like that..HAHA!!!...also ended up only me, apple and jolene togther. jin ting is sick and joyce busy working.HAI!!when can we really go out as a group...

so we had our lunch and breakfast over there and start studying at the same time talking...hai...hee...so we pack up our things and when to jolene's house and leave all the notes and books and took a bus no 65 to orchard...along the way,think back alots of memories between me and my ex-galfriend "jia li" until today i still thinking of her...along the way was very sad just that my friends dun know about it...hai..we when to takashimaya and walk walk and look for ivy cause she working at mooncake thingy...but she is not around.....hai..

and we go far east and have our dinner and meet jonlene's friend...and took a neo print..AGAIN!!!HAHA...and the machine is so Hi-Tech...

After that, they wanted to go "China Black"...But ended cant go in..so went home around 10 plus...

Now online chatting with ivy about dun know what very sian...quarrel also dun know about what..and also jing ting and joyce msn tell me that they felt neglected in this group..hai!! and say out all those hurting words..today is a sad day again

Bad Day

2004-09-13T22:21:00.000-07:00

Today was a not a very happy day for me, working for long hours from morning 10am - 11pm at 13 hours of standing. Doing opening, with one of the new staff call "may" who is 31 years old. She is a person that i dun really respect as she thinks that she know's everything in pastamaina but she is wrong she dun even know a single thing. one of the most angry case is that she never even ask the customer whether can clear and she just clear the plates. And unlucky for her customer haven finish the food and she start to clear without asking...hai...and i went to help her and slove the problem by asking a refund or make a new one...and yet May say is free of charge one...how angry am i..and she keep saying that but not say sorry...instead of me saying sorry..hai... during evening time,more angry. As i'm am the cashier asking people for orders. there was actually one couple ordering but before that i was taking a tap water for a lady. and that lady left with the water pour out the counter. so i was wondering why she did that. and that couple of that guy actually shouted at me "I'm OVER HERE"...i was so damn angry is not that i dun wan to attend to u and see yr stupid face..is that i was doing other things lor...kanna scolded for nothing lor..cant do anything also..but to tell myself to forget about it. hai..sometimes..think of quiting cause is really very tried to do the same things for months and get scolding from customer for nothing.hai...what to do for money...must bear with it i reallly need someone to brighten up my life again...

IT1D East Coast BBQ

2004-09-12T22:20:00.000-07:00

Long time never been so happy like today, having a class BBQ with my ITE Tampines friends. Meet jin ting,Jolene and apple at bedok interchange at 3pm, and I was late. HEE!!!. When we meet up, Jolene is the last one to reach…Hee! (sorry to say U). when to Watson to buy what wet tissues..hai…what to do…girls…after that when to take a bus 197 to East Coast park. And our party starts, the first thing we do was to rent a bike with 3 hours ride and total of 30 bucks. So we cycle a bit…Jolene’s boyfriend called him to meet up with him…and ended passing him a MacDonald food. SO SWEET!!!.so we went to the MacDonald and park our bikes outside. And had so call our breakfast and lunch over there. Just about to finish our food and about to go. Got one very Cute gal (jin ting) had my face with coke..hai..sad man…and still dare to laugh… So we cycle to our pit no.36 to find them and saw only kamar’s gang. So we continue our cycling trip…until found a very nice place to take photo…and found out that the camera was left at the pit. So had no choice but to go back and take, and so let this poor guy who is writing all this to take the camera. But on the way back, my past memories start to flash back that me and my ex-girlfriend have come here before picking up seashells while dating. But what past is past, and went back with the camera. We took lots of photos AND I MEAN A LOT…HEE!!! After taking, went to jetty and take some more before go back and return the bikes. And during at that time at the jetty. Got one guy keep look at apple…and ended up helping us taking a group photo. We rush off and cycle as fast as possible and return back the bikes on time at 7.05pm. after that went to buy a 100 plus sharing. And Dun know who’s idea again cause there is a fun fair at that area so we went in and play the pirate ship. And I shout and shout not because I scare but to really distress myself with all the problem I had. And went back to BBQ pit, and eat, play cards and listen to songs. Finally, taking a class photo. And went off around 10pm and took a cab home. Long time really never felt so happy like today. All thanks to my wifes. Jolene, apple and jin ting. But sad to say my another wife joyce need to work. But still thanks for letting me remember such a happy memories. And remembering this day. Thanks a lot IT1D ruleZ